Poem: My Acceptance To Heart Ache & Pain

Chills came up & down my spine...
Knowin its a womens intuition...
I tell myself its a breeze...
Ironically deep down I still believed...
You stare deep into my eyes..
You kiss me long & hard with deep pasionate kisses...
Just to show how much you missed me...
You dive right into my soul...
You feel my heart beating and you give it warmth from the distance of it being cold...
U tell me its yours & to neva let go...
You give me unconditional hope & comlicated love...
And I do the same...
The very next day I smile...
After feeling another chill then next a cold breeze...

Janae Nikole is moving away from the bay

I'm moving to place where the night never sleeps and whatever sins you commit you leave it there... lol. Yes Las Vegas, Nevada I will truly miss the bay with all my friends, promoters, Artist, photographers, and family. But I will and always put myself first. With that being said, I have to pursue my career in modeling, acting and of course finish up my education. If i try to do shout outs i know ill be missing sooo many names so I will just say: JanaeNikole loves you all and this is the beginning of an adventure for her and thanks for all the support and help from friends and family and all the love i received from all my haters! Till we meet again...

San Pablo, Ca Child Abuse Case: Never Heard Anything Like This

Its crazy what these kids were going through. They were living one block away from me and i had no idea. When are they going to learn and stop the abuse, killings, and even kidnappings and realize that it only brings more pain and chaos?! below is a pic of the Grandmother on the left and aunt on the right that were beating these kids.





Two San Pablo women are scheduled to return to court next week to enter pleas on felony charges that they physically and psychologically abused three children who had been in their care for the past two years.Faasese Fiu, 56, and Satu Diaz, 34, were arrested Monday and each charged Wednesday with three counts of felony child abuse for allegedly abusing two 11-year-old twin boys and their 13-year-old sister.Fiu and Diaz did not enter pleas during their Thursday arraignment and are scheduled to return to court April 9 to be assigned attorneys and enter pleas to the charges, according to the court records. The children were originally from Samoa, but were sent to San Pablo to live with their grandmother, Fiu, and their aunt, Diaz, in the 2500 block of 22nd Street in March, 2007, after their parents divorced, according to San Pablo police Lt. Kenneth Bays. Their mother had allegedly fled to a different island to escape abuse from their father and their father sent the children to San Pablo, Bays said. The children had never been enrolled in school and had allegedly been beaten with sticks and other hard objects. They had old and new bruises and scars covering their entire bodies, Bays said.Their ankles were swollen from allegedly being forced to stand for hours on concrete in the hot sun and late into the night in the backyard and they were allegedly only given food about twice a week, Bays said.They bathed themselves in the backyard with a garden hose and would be beaten if they asked to go to the bathroom, according to San Pablo police Lt. Mark Foisie.The three siblings escaped March 26 and went to a liquor store on San Pablo Avenue around the corner from the house.The owner of the liquor at 14301 San Pablo Ave. asked that his name not be printed, but said he had seen the children that morning."The three of them came in Thursday last week," he said. "They were in really bad shape. It was like they were from a different planet."He said somebody gave them money and they bought some candy and left.Police said the children then went to a nightclub across the street and asked for help.When police found them at about 11:45 a.m., they looked malnourished, withdrawn and desperate, police said.
They were taken to Doctors Medical Center, where they were examined, and then to Martinez, where they were interviewed at the Child Interview Center.Another neighbor said children often played outside in front of their houses on the quiet residential street, but she had never seen the three victims outside, which she thought was odd. She said she hadn't seen anything suspicious, but didn't even know the victims lived there.Several other children lived in the house as well and were often seen outside playing, she said.Police said the other children appeared well cared for and showed no signs of abuse.The three victims were taken into child protective custody and police have contacted their mother, but it was unclear where they would go next.Bays said their mother didn't have the money to bring them back to Samoa and it wasn't clear at this point if they would be safe there.Fiu and Diaz were arrested Monday and remained in county jail today, each on $450,000 bail, officials said.

Going Out Of Business...It might be your favorite store

U.S.News & World Report
More Companies At Risk of Failing
Tuesday March 10, 12:46 pm ET
By Rick Newman

Everybody hopes the economy bottoms out and starts to improve tomorrow. Or sooner. But there are few signs of an imminent recovery. One obvious indicator is the health of big companies - you know, the ones that have been announcing all those four- and five-digits layoffs recently. And the outlook for them seems to be getting worse, not better.

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Moody's, the ratings agency, recently published a list of "bottom rung" companies most likely to default on their debt. The criteria are technical, but the upshot is that a lot of companies are in deep trouble - and the list is getting longer, not shorter. Moody's predicts that the default rate on corporate bonds this year will be three times higher than in 2008, and 15 times higher than in 2007. Defaults are often the last step before a bankruptcy filing. And bankrupt companies, obviously, don't usually hire people. They dramatically shed costs and workers and sometimes liquidate completely, firing everybody.

[See 15 firms that might not survive 2009.]

So the Moody's findings help explain why most economists expect the unemployment rate, now 8.1 percent, to rise as high as 9 or 10 percent before it starts to drift back down. And right now, real and perceived fears about job security are the main force driving a contraction in consumer spending, and the economy as a whole. Here's what the bottom-rung report tells us about the next several months:

There will be a lot more bankruptcies. Moody's places 283 companies on its bottom-rung list, up from 157 a year ago. Since the quarterly list was last updated, 73 additional companies have fallen to the bottom rung. Twenty-four companies made their way off the list - but mostly because they defaulted on their debts. Only one company, Landry's Restaurants, got off the list because its circumstances improved.

[See why bank nationalization terrifies Wall Street.]

Companies exposed to consumer spending have it toughest. The industries most represented on the list are media, automotive, retail and manufacturing. Companies in the most acute danger are those with reduced cash flow and a high debt load. A lot of big, well-known companies are in danger. On the list: Advanced Micro Devices; AirTran; AMR (parent of American Airlines); Chrysler; Duane Reade; Eastman-Kodak; Ford; General Motors; JetBlue; Krispy Kreme; Palm; R.H. Donnelly; Reader's Digest Association; Rite-Aid; UAL (parent of United Airlines); Unisys; and US Airways.

Many of the other firms on the list are second- or third-tier suppliers to automakers, airlines, and other troubled firms. Being on the list doesn't mean a firm is destined for bankruptcy. But it does mean the company faces severe constraints in terms of raising new capital, making new investments, and hiring. Instead of expanding, it may be far more inclined to sell assets, streamline or close divisions, and lay people off to cut costs and raise cash.

[See 6 possible upsides to a GM bankruptcy.]

America's malls are going to end up looking a lot different. The retail sector is obviously getting hammered, with chains like Circuit City and Linens 'n Things already out of business. Many other retail chains are in trouble. Also on the bottom-rung list: Barney's; BCBG Maz Azria; Blockbuster; Brookstone; Claire's Stores; Eddie Bauer; Finlay Fine Jewelry; Harry & David; Loehmann's; Michael's Stores; Oriental Trading Co.; and Sbarro. Again, this doesn't mean the company is doomed. But many of these firms will restructure, close outlets, shrink, and find ways to transform themselves. So if you ever go back to the mall, and your favorite shop has disappeared, you'll know why.

My Favorite Flower: Orchid's & why i love them

My favorite Flower is the Phalaenopsis Flower also known as one of the Orchid Flowers.
I love this particular one because they are the thick-leaved plants with elegant, arching sprays of blooms that can be seen in so many design magazines and sitting on coffee tables across America. There are about 60 true species of phalaenopsis; they are native to tropical Asian countries including the Philippines, Borneo, Java and elsewhere. These plants have been extensively hybridized, and there are thousands of phalaenopsis hybrids, ranging from the stark, classic white hybrid (often called a moth orchid) to jewel-like miniatures with clouds of yellow and candy pink blooms.

Come out and support these Breath taking Flowers this weekend in San Francisco.










Start Date: March 6, 2009 - End Date: March 8, 2009

Time: Friday 10am-6pm Saturday 9am-6pm Sunday 10am-5pm

Location: Fort Mason Center’s Festival Pavilion

Phone: 650.548.6700

Link: http://www.orchidsanfrancisco.org/poe.html

Child Price: Kids 12 & Under Free when accompanied by an adult

Adult Price: General Admission: $12 in advance/ $14 at the door, Seniors: $8 in advance / $10 at the door
Event Description
Many people grow orchids as houseplants because of their breath-taking beauty and elegance. But these plants are not only beautiful decorations; studies have shown that orchids are one of the best eco-friendly house plants working night and day to keep your air clean.

Different from most plants, some orchids such as Catteyas and many Dendrobiums have modified their respiration in the same way as Cacti and many succulents. Energy from the sun is stored as organic acids during the day, then used to fix carbon at night, releasing oxygen in the process. They do this so they don’t have to exchange gasses during the heat of the day and lose excess water. Through this natural process, these orchids use carbon dioxide, release oxygen at night rather than during the day as most plants do. Orchids also reduce air pollutants and facilitate the air purification processes which continue throughout the night. Orchids and the other pollution reducing houseplants, such as the Spider Plant reduce the amount of particulate matter and volatile organic compounds (VOC) in the air. Orchids in the home thus have health benefits (beyond soothing the soul) since VOCs are a major cause of respiratory problems, headaches, and more.

Some orchid species have even higher environmental value. In Dr. B.C. Wolverton's Book "Eco Friendly House Plants," the Dendrobium orchid is listed as one of the top 20 plants to be considered the most useful in removing chemical vapors.

To learn more about orchids’ air-cleaning functions and their benefits to the greater environment, visit one of the three most prestigious orchid shows in the
United States, the San Francisco Orchid Society’s 2009 Pacific Orchid Exposition. More than 150,000 orchid flowers throughout the world will be displayed in educational exhibits and sales booths, offering orchid enthusiasts a unique opportunity to look into the close relationships between orchids and its surrounding environment, as well as to learn more sustainable cultivation techniques.

Richmond, CA Historical Museum: Where I'm From

So yesterday I was assigned a small project for my job... To find out about Richmond's Iron triangle... & why this City was once full of life that had many business back and 1920's and how it became abandoned and left for dead in the 1950's... My first source was Richmond's Historical Museum off of 4th & Nevin... Never knew we had one! Did you know Richmond alone once had 12 movie theaters? Also had Trolleys all over barret & Mcdonald & cutting... They even Had a Business college over on McDonald...

QUESTION:Man this is sooo weird to see but
I ive heard that this was the docking place for many back in the day.
That pretty much why we had our name as Richmond was because of the
wealth that was once generated here. I wonder why all the biznesses left
and how did Richmond turn from white ta black and how violence is the
center piece and not jobs. 12 movie theaters WTf where? Mannnn I wish I
could go back in time and see what it was really like and how it changed
so dramatically

ANSWER: Well during world war 2 many African Americans migrated from the south to the west coast because of job opportunities in the factories and ships and of course in the war... After the war ended there were so many Men woman and children they made the triangular projects which happens to be the head of the "Iron Triangle"... the whites moved to the upper class while they gave blacks the ghetto projects it was not till 1974 hilltop was made and Richmond became crime infested... and all the whites moved out and went to Hilltop...
Here are some pics of the historical Museum... I Convince our young generation to stop by and support the community... Richmond Historical Museum is located on 4th & Nevin and only $2 admission... here are some pics below...

Canadian Rapper Drake: Mixtape So Far Gone

I been watching Drake since he came on the scene from TV show Degrassi... Yes lol i was a Degrassi fan...You really don't have a choice when you have a 12yr old sister in the household...lol... But what really caught my eye was his passion for success. I fell in love with his hit single Brand New back in 2007. Now Drake is back and bigger than ever still unsigned he still makes the spotlight to our generation. This talented artist has worked real hard to get where he's at and i applaud him for that. Show him support And cop the mixtape trust me its Worth it!!! Below is a interview with complex magazine and a Video of my favorite song on the mixtape: Successful feat. Trey Songz & Lil Wayne...


Complex: Listening to your earlier mixtapes, as well as So Far Gone, a constant theme seems to be the notion that “All That Glitters Ain’t Gold.” It seems like you try to be honest and downplay the rapper lifestyle, like when you talk about buying a Phantom but regretting it.

Drake: Yeah, well, to be even more honest, I leased a Phantom instead of buying one, ’cause I didn‘t have enough money to buy a Phantom, I leased a Phantom because that’s what I thought I needed to do. And I’ve done a lot of things to just enjoy my nights a little more and to feed my ego. And that’s kinda why I rap about it, because a lot of people are like, “If he ever steps out of line, I’m gonna say Drake’s wack.” So the only choice I have is to be honest with my listeners. And that’s not to say it’s not a glamorous life and it’s not fun, but the reality is it’s great for the average person to hear a musician’s reality because we all seem so unattainable and so out of reach that when you bring yourself back to eye level with a fan and do it in the right way…



Complex: Talk to us about So Far Gone. What was the idea behind it?

Drake: It’s basically a story. It starts in January 2008 when I was kinda confused like, What am I really doing? I gave up acting all together to really do this music thing, and I was really truly confused. It’s way different than acting, there aren’t people to depend on, you really have to build your own thing basically from the ground up, you know, so in January not only was I confused about my career, I was also in a very destructive sort of us exhausting relationship with a female and it was just a bad headspace for me to be in. So that’s where the tape starts.

It starts with this monologue, “Lust For Life”, of me crying out, in my head the things that I never say. The things that I was just thinking, that was my mindset. Then it goes to “Houstatlantavegas” which is about what I felt about the girl I was with. I just felt that nothing was ever good enough, and she was always searching for more excitement and then we move into “Successful.” I say at the end of the song, “There are so many things I want to say but I just don’t know how to say it to you.” I know exactly what I want to say, you know, I just want to be successful, but I don’t know if I can do it with you and then it goes into “Let’s Call It Off,” which is the breakup. And then coincidentally when I broke up with that girl a week later I went to Houston and met Lil Wayne and that’s where “November 18″ comes from.

Definition of Violence

I always studied and did reports on the acts of violence... but being that there are so many reasons and explanations for ones actions I really couldn't put my finger to what was violence... Not until I came accross this quote:
"Violence as a way of achieving racial justice is booth impractical and immoral. It is impractical because it is a descending a spiral ending in destruction for all. The old law of an eye for an eye leaves everybody blind. It is immoral because it seeks to humiliate the opponent rather than win his understanding. it seeks to annihilate rather than to convert. Violence is immoral because it thrives on hatred rather than love. It destroys community and makes brotherhood impossible. It leaves society in monologue rather than dialogue. Violence ends by defeating itself. It creates bitterness in the survivors and brutality in the destroyers."
-Martin Luther King, Jr.

Ms. Teairra Mari

Teairra Mari is back yall. You may remember her from that one hit "Make Her Feel Good". When Only at age 17 she caught the eye of Jay-Z and was signed to Def Jam Records...This April, Teairra Mari will make a return to the limelight with her new album At That Point. Since her departure from Jay-Z’s Rocafella Records a couple years back, She releaseing her first album. She has since, grown from being a teenager trying to find herself - to being a woman who knows exactly what she wants. Teairra is living in Los Angeles now, but does find herself coming to Miami every so often for business and…for pleasure. And I don’t mean “pleasure” as in Pleasure P - she assures us that they’re really good friends. Her first single, “Hunt For You”, actually features him. But the song that caught my ears was "Built for this" this song has encourage me and most young ladies to follow their dreams and work hard for what you want in life. Teairra Mari
is truly a inspiration at heart. Support my girl and buy her Album April 12th... Check out her music video rehersal below with one of my favorite songs out!!!

I Blame Him

Men always want to know how a fine, intelligent, sophisticated, and "rare" young lady like me stay single... & Usually you hear from us ladies that our "ex" messed it up for our next relationship... I don't blame my "ex", {even though he did put me through hell}... I blame my father. Growing up, he had me believe that it was okay for a man to come in and out of my life. To have multiple women, and to generate lots of kids by them, & to say they are coming for me and to never show up. Through the years, I learned not to trust any man. To believe their actions because it speaks louder than their words. I've learned to put me & God first before any man. Also to not look for a man, but to let them find me. As long as they don't have a history like my fathers, then I'll give them a shot. But still, I won't let them get close to my heart. They can try, but it still won't amount to what I believe I deserve... for example: I'll treat my man like a King, just as long as he treat his woman like a Queen.<---A rare occasion for a man..... if I don't see it in their actions; then they're just all talk & they weren't the one for me to begin with... I sometimes see certain things in a man that remind me of my father & I begin to have doubts... Don't get me wrong I love my father and i forgave him a while back, but still I blame my father.... Especially for me not letting a GOOD MAN "dive into my heart, & swim into my soul." { This is why I choose to stay single}

Cleanliness Is Next to Godliness

Filthy Clean is an emotional collective, based on primal human emotions. In searching for a way to balance our feelings, we attempt to conceal our desires to bury our addictions. A true balance, however, is only achieved when good n bad, positive and negative, find an equilibrium. We are all afflicted spirits. Sometimes tarnished, yet brilliant, in the new day's light. With confession, comes absolution. We wash away the days' sins from our bodies, beginning anew, naked and ∵★Ｆ®ΣŠＨ★∴ .Ready!
-Ms. Pierra

THE TRUTH:IF A MAN WANTS YOU

The Truth
Current mood: touched
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

THE TRUTH
Current mood: touched

IF A MAN WANTS YOU If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, Why would he treat you any differently? Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are. Never borrow someone else's man. Oh Lord! If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you. All men are NOT dogs. You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two way street. You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary. Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others. Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone SMILE, another RETHINK her choices, and another woman PREPARE. They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them. Pass this on to at least 10 woman and 5 men.

Poem: What is our deepest fear?

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who I AM to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

I Promise

I am me. I promise myself to be me at all times & not change for anyone. I'll take chances and make risks. I will continue to put God first in my life before any man & I will only receive the finest treatment a woman like me deserves from a man... I forgive my enemies from my past & future... I will always keep my head up and never look down... I will never let anyone look down on me nor will I look down on anyone else... I will not look back at my past but instead look forward to my future... I won't desire what is out of my control but I will strive to get what I desire... Im not perfect so I will make mistakes. But I promise myself not to give up & not to fall back, instead I will stay strong & continue to follow my dreams. Signed by Janae Nikole
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