I Blame Him

Men always want to know how a fine, intelligent, sophisticated, and "rare" young lady like me stay single... & Usually you hear from us ladies that our "ex" messed it up for our next relationship... I don't blame my "ex", {even though he did put me through hell}... I blame my father. Growing up, he had me believe that it was okay for a man to come in and out of my life. To have multiple women, and to generate lots of kids by them, & to say they are coming for me and to never show up. Through the years, I learned not to trust any man. To believe their actions because it speaks louder than their words. I've learned to put me & God first before any man. Also to not look for a man, but to let them find me. As long as they don't have a history like my fathers, then I'll give them a shot. But still, I won't let them get close to my heart. They can try, but it still won't amount to what I believe I deserve... for example: I'll treat my man like a King, just as long as he treat his woman like a Queen.<---A rare occasion for a man..... if I don't see it in their actions; then they're just all talk & they weren't the one for me to begin with... I sometimes see certain things in a man that remind me of my father & I begin to have doubts... Don't get me wrong I love my father and i forgave him a while back, but still I blame my father.... Especially for me not letting a GOOD MAN "dive into my heart, & swim into my soul." { This is why I choose to stay single}